In 2011, I started a blog. It was called Dante’s Opinion. It grew into something more. It grew into this.
It’s with a heavy heart that I announce the end of Dante’s Optimism. My optimism. And, for now, this is the end of my blogging career.
At first, I was just going to let the blog sit here and gather dust. But, when I look at the number of subscribers and comments and fans, I realize I owe you an explanation. Some of you have been following me for years. Following my optimism. I’m going to tell you why this is the end.
I want to tell you some wild story about something in my life. I want to tell you I’m starting another project. I want to tell you these things. Truth is: I don’t feel like it anymore.
Maybe I’m tired. That’s what I thought. Since June, I’ve been working 60-70 hours a week. The last published post here was a day after I was promoted at one of the jobs, thus giving me a bigger role. But then, I’ve always been inconsistent with this blog. Even times when I was unemployed. All the time in the world.
So, no, I’m not too tired to do this. It plays a factor, but I wouldn’t let that single thing take me out of the game.
Was it emotional? Probably. Since 2016, I’ve had a major block on me for writing. I haven’t been able to do much writing. Like, creative on for this blog. Nothing has been stimulating enough. Everything is boring. It’s like I don’t care anymore.
The past couple of weeks have felt weird. I’ve just looked at the drafts saved for the site and just like “Nah”. I just don’t have the…fire…desire…drive, to get this done anymore. There’s no passion. I even get uncomfortable when people ask about my blog. Like, “Oh, you have a blog? Cool!” In the back of my mind I’m like, “I guess.”
Like, I’ve really checked out. Probably what happened to me in 2016 is what triggered this blog’s demise. Maybe until now I didn’t realize the impact certain events had on me. Because those events put me in an emotional numbness. I think I’m finally getting over those events and realizing what I’m all about and where my heart is.
I know what I want in life. I know exactly what I want and I won’t be happy until I get what I want. People have tried to tell me I’m missing the point, and that’s fine. I don’t care. I know exactly what I want and I pray for it every single day. Every. Single. Day.
So, now what? I still have my website, Dalanel. That’s always been a site about me. It’s about me as a writer, blogger, lighting designer, and whatever else I’m working on. So, you’ll hear from me over there.
From a writing perspective, I’ll be promoting my book more. It’s time to make some money. I also plan on posting some stuff from here over at Dalanel. Some of my favorite material. Some of my personal stuff. Some stuff that fits the theme of that website.
So, what about this space? It’s not going anywhere. I’m not pulling the site. And hey, one day I could return to this space and do something with it. But, for now, this blog with live off of the content posted. Most of this stuff is timeless, so people months and years from now will find value. Current value.
What about me? I could tell you to follow me on Twitter. I don’t tweet much anymore and I’m plotting leaving social media altogether, especially since this blog is out of the way.
Let me end this with a big thank you. Thank you to the following:
- Former contributors
- Social media followers
- Email subscribers
- Newsletter subscribers
A special thank you to the WordPress followers I have. You were always my favorite number, even if you weren’t the largest. It’s been a fun ride, in my opinion. I have no regrets about starting this project. It’s been the best thing I’ve ever done with my life.
But, I’m out. It’s time to wrap this up. I’m nowhere close to done writing. It’s such a joy of mine. A passion. A gift.